Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Automatic Negative Thoughts

I have just spent the evening with my friend, she gave me some photos of her baby. I was really pleased she let me have them and I was making plans of where I was going to put them.

I put the photo on the seat next to me and drove home. On the way home I stopped at the fisn 'n' chip shop to get some food. I got in the car and placed these too on the seat next to me. I worried for an instant about the greece going through but decided they would be ok because the chips were well wrapped and a little greece would wipe off in worse case scenario.

When I got out of the car I found that the heat from the chips had melted some of the print on the photos. Ok it was sad but only effected one of the pictures, I still had all the others.

I was sitting on the floor eating my chips from the paper and I knocked my drink all over the photos. It has ruined the whole lot :o(. The ink has washed off :o( !!It has ruined the whole lot. To just rub salt in the wound the print from the photo is all over the rug I scrubbed on my hands and knees last week.

My automatic thoughts are just 'you never look after anything, you are so careless, x won't give you anymore, she should have given them to someone else'

I feel so miserable about it!! :o(

I'm trying to fight the automatic negative thoughts but I'm so tired I just want to cry.

Still no word from the someone else, and the other guy seems to have lost interest too. I am destined to be alone forever.

Maybe it will seem better in the morning!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

meh. accidents. never mind. you could always ask your friend for the negatives to get your copies re-done. your friend won't think anything bad about you - you know that anyway :)

Anonymous said...

awwww honey- accidents do happen-dont be so hard on yourself- james is right you can have copies made from the negatives and hopefully the carpet will come clean. I hope you DO feel better about it all in the morning. Will an "I'm such a klutz" story help? LOL I was staying at my friends house for a while and he is an avid collector of antiques and such. His house was a mess (typical bachelor) and I decided to clean it. He had a floor heater going and I bumped it accidentally with the vacuum and that bumped the heater into this antique banjo sitting against a chair. This ripped the "head" (the paper part in the middle. I was horrified. I had it replace and it cost over $100 to do it, but now the head is new and the banjo is antique......tho I understand they change those like guitar strings - I still devalued his precious banjo. He forgave me:P just as I am sure your friend will understand and forgive you. You probably just have to forgive yourself hun