Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Stephen Fry's Documentary

I had a great holday, it was really nice, I sat by the pool and got waited on the whole time. I had a few massages, did lots of swimming and went on a dessert safari.

Did anyone watch Stephen Fry's documentary on bipolar last week. There are clips on the bbc website and case studies. My family have been watching it. May be it will help them talk about it and stop my Mum denying there is anything wrong with me?

I have not really come across any discrimination at work or with my friends; my family have been the only ones that seem to have difficulty talking about it. Hopefully the documentaries will help them.

Here is the link if anyone wants to take a look;

After watching the second half of the documentary with my sister and her husband tonight; I asked if they noticed a change in me. They both said I seem more together and happier than I was before being diagnosed!!!

Friday, September 15, 2006


I am going to Dubai on holiday for 1 week tomorrow. I can not wait I am so tired and have been working really hard recently. I just intend to sit by the pool and relax!!

Friday, September 01, 2006

Scared of Change

Today I suddenly understood why so many people don't like change. My boss told me a colleague was returning from maternity leave in November. Things have been going so well since she left, I have taken on loads more responsibility and I now love my job. When I was working with her I felt very stiffled and held back career wise as I had to do as she asked. I now have my own studies and have built good relationships with our customers and I am really enjoying work.

I felt really worried after he told me and my mind went quite blank. I stared at the screen for about 20 minutes, the idea of the change really worried me and frightened me. In the past I have always always been excited by change and looked at things as a bit of an adventure. I never really understood peoples fear of change. I think you have to be happy with what you have to fear change! I think this is one reason why I have never connected with people in the past.

On the way home from work I kind of realised I have never been this happy before. Although a part of me hates being on my own so much I feel I have more to loose now than I have ever had in the past.

I did not feel sorry for myself or sad but I felt really tired like I was about to fall asleep and I had no energy!! I just felt like I wanted to go to sleep.