Monday, September 10, 2007

Support Network Gone

I have had a few months where I have been hypomanic for about 50% of the time. Now that is over I seem to have lost the good support network I had. It's hard to get it back :o(

I guess this is my lifetime struggle, no one elses. Other people and friends will come and go through my journey but the bipolar will always be there. Still it is a part of who I am and I must ride out the flat times.

I feel quite low, nothing too severe, just empty and wondering if this is how everyone else feels all the time or whether I am really low. I still feel blessed to experiance life in such an animated way, I still wouldn't stop the illness even if I could!

I have had a bad day at work, struggling with my boss. He treats me like a second class citizen and I am afraid it has got to the point where I can not talk and pass the time of day with him without him jumping on everything being patronising and even insulting. Interfering on with my working relationship with colleagues.

I don't think anyone is out there anymore.

4 comments:

graciousb said...

oh sweetie -- you are so not alone -- i know exactly how you feel! i am in a similar situation, not exactly, but ...there are many of us ''out there''...hang in there...hugs from far away (san diego calif.)

pjbrubak said...

My boss sucks too. And I have experienced a lot of what you are feeling lately. My parents will always be there for me. I hope you have someone like that too...

Annie said...

Thanks Guy's, I have some good friends but it is sometimes hard to let them know I need some support. They just like to think I am ok all the time.

bipolar_girl said...

Hang in there! There are a lot of us feeling the way you do. Don't lose hope. Everything will be fine again. take care always