Sunday, January 25, 2009

Just been to the pub. I had to come home because I could not stop shaking. I'm definitely unstable and I do not think I will ge to work this week. I am sitting next to my mother and she has no idea how shaky and unwell I am. She still denies there is anything wrong with me.

I am not sharing my blog incase I decide to end it all. No one will take that decision from me! I will not allow it! I have no definitive plans at the moment!

NO ONE WILL TAKE AWAY THE LITTLE CONTROL I HAVE!! I WILL NOT ALLOW IT!!!!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

From this post I get the impression that your idea of "control" is having the option to escape having to ever make another independent decision again.

That's the ultimate way to paint yourself into a corner. Do you really want to do that?

Annie said...

No, I like life if anyone tried to control my choices and independent decisions lke running here every 5 mins or my mother inssting on coming to 'look after me' I just don't think I would be able to cope. I've decided I just wouldn't let her in tho' :o)!